Unravel Me

moving & going with the flow...

2006-02-07
these days have been filled with an alternating mix of optimism & insecurity, sadness & happiness, fear & hope, lethargy & energy. all at once, i face these big changes. part of me thinks they can�t come fast enough--one minute, i'm dying to know what�s next. the next minute, the other part of me wants time to slow down. i just want the chance to soak everything in and appreciate what is before me here & now.

i haven�t said much about my upcoming summer move. well...it stresses me out. the possibilities (no matter how theoretically slim some of them are) include: the washington dc area, boston, the sf bay area, pennsylvania, seattle, north carolina or michigan. (OR i get to stay here but do an in-town move)! that�s really all i feel i can say right now. i just can't go there yet. BUT, along those lines, i DO already have a couple of pieces of happy news! but i�m still sitting on that info & keeping it to myself just for now, ok? ;-)

on friday night, a couple of us went to see a friend�s opening show w/ an improv comedy group she just got involved in. it�s called the Improfessionals. my friend had been taking improv acting classes just for fun since 2004. last week was her 1st performance and by all markers, it was a success. she�s a natural, and as a bonus, she and her kind-of, sort-of boyfriend have excellent chemistry on-stage!

after the Improfessionals show, three of us celebrated her debut by getting martinis at the trendy downtown watering hole known as Bang. it�s a total see & be seen kind of place, complete w/ sexy black-clad servers, lychee martinis, and mainly asian-type appetizers that are pretty good. it was unusually warm on friday, so patio seating was open that evening (!), and it was a perfect february night. but, as i sipped my lemon drop, a wave of sadness passed over me momentarily as it hit me that there�s a chance i might not be here next year. suddenly it all became so real.

later we started talking about improv, and i told my friend how tough unscripted acting looked, that i�d find it difficult. her reply was that it�s exactly what she loves�the unpredictability, the thinking on your toes, and going with the flow on stage. when she said that, i thought �a ha!�. �going with the flow� of things has stuck out in my mind ever since, because it�s exactly what i think i must learn to do more of, rather than stress out and worry.

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