private train of thought
2003-05-14
private train of thought...well this is it. the day has arrived. i said what i wanted to say in my (previous entry)... not aloud, but silently. what matters is that the words were finally put coherently into my diary here.
it's 6:45 in the morning and in a little while i'm headed down to the hospital for dad's heart valve replacement surgery and i'll be there all day. i'm telling myself everything will be okay. right now i'm wavering between calm and peace, and anxiety, though hopefully i'll be more calm as today goes on. and once this is over i'll be so glad. it's so reassuring to have a sister who is a surgeon. i can't emphasize it any more than that.
