good and bad

today i have both good and bad things to write about. i guess i'll start with the bad stuff and save the good things for last.

first, this is really bad, but i'm still on that narcotic cough syrup and it's been almost 3 wks. but there's a reason: it turns out i do indeed have pneumonia. luckily it's been mild and low-grade, so a round antibiotics should take care of it. before this, i never knew there was such a thing as "walking pneumonia". i guess you learn something new everyday. so i've been advised to take it easy, take plenty of fluids, stay out of the water (swimming) until my cough clears, and to stay warm indoors -- presumably no running, since the weather has been so damn cold here. wtf? it's been unusually arctic this winter around here. if anyone in canada is reading this i probably sound like a wimp. but maybe my acupuncturist was right when he said i should consider a different climate to maximize my physical well-being. it's like i'm an indoor potted palm tree--totally out of place when the weather gets so cold. i have a hard time believing i actually lived in new england for 4 yrs. the thing is: i loved it, though the wintry stuff did get tiring once feb and march rolled around. it's times like this that i'm seriously tempted to move to calif: sunny san diego. or l.a. maybe the lovely bay area? i've been in the bay area a few times including last summer--it was a difficult place to leave. choices, choices. someone i knew (rob, who i think i mentioned in a recent entry) lives in san diego. apparently plays semi-pro. soccer and coaches as well. *sigh*

other stuff: you know it's bad when you get e-mail from friends asking "are you still alive?", "is this account still active?", "where are you?" or "have you dropped off the face of the earth?". i never gave it much thought until things took the turn they did a few yrs. ago w/ me, but now i understand why you don't hear from some friends when things aren't going well. it helps me better relate to a friend who i didn't hear from for about four yrs. after graduation b/c she'd been in a very bad relationship and had a lot of baggage from that mess. it's not like i have anything to hide, really. it's not like i've done something terrible or that it's a crime to be sick. and maybe i'm more sensitive about the situation than i should be. i shouldn't have to be ashamed. and yet it's just not something i want to advertise. hopefully this year i can come out from hiding.

some good things: i won $10 in mega millions. i tend to buy lotto tickets only when the jackpot gets respectably large. $10 is better than $0! but what kills me is if i'd matched one more number i'd have won $150.

another good thing: i gave in to temptation and bought (yet another) pair of shoes. these black boots from 9West are so cute! did i need them? no. did i want them? you bet! but if you've been reading me from the beginning, you know my philosophy: a woman can never have too many shoes, esp. black shoes. and black pants. i always seem to wear something black. but then who doesn't? my next task is to find something in a color that brightens my wardrobe a little.

the final good thing: tonight is bachelorette night! boy, i am such a sucker for reality t.v. i'll probably be wrapped up in a blanket in my living room, drinking jasmine or lichee tee, watching trista come closer to her decision. oh, man, trista better not screw up here. at this point i find myself hoping she picks ryan. i guess it's that sensitive, shy-guy, poetry thing. i kind of like that in a guy. it beats some of the smarmy frat boy types, hands down! anyway, i'm sure i could devote a whole entry to the bachelorette, or reality t.v. but i won't. watch it for yourselves.